2001. My story begins when I joined the Navy . When I got to bootcamp I was constantly tired but so was everyone else. They are very strict and watch you constantly so you can’t take naps. You only get the sleep when they allow you too and being sleep deprived is a training tool. When I left bootcamp and got to my training school it was different. I was able to get more sleep but I was still very tired all the time. Looking back on that now I feel that was when my health started to take a turn.
Once I got to the Naval Fleet my weight jumped from 180 lbs when I was in boot camp to 220lbs. I also started to drink quite heavily. I was able to get alcohol from coworkers until I turned 21 but drinking was part of the culture. We would have big parties and I drank almost every day but really heavy on the weekend. Around 18 drinks per day.
The first health problem other than the constant fatigue that I was suffering from began on a deployment to the middle east. I began getting really bad acne on my fore arms. I went to medical several times for it. They would always give me a cream and send me away. They never diagnosed me with anything. But it wouldn’t go away.
2005. I got out of the Navy. After the Navy my weight jumped up from 220 to 285 in a matter of 6 months or so. I got really bad stretch marks all over my sides and I started to get man boobs. I had really tender nipples and I even went to the doctor and got an ultra sound and they never found anything. The tender nipples subsided after about 6 months on it’s own.
2006. I was drinking constantly because I was just going to school part time. I would have a 12 pack of beer a night. Around this time my ability to control my mood and my thoughts were beginning to slip which is challenging with a newborn around. I would have trouble not getting angry for no reason. I didn’t want to go in crowds. I even spit at a lady who wouldn’t let me into Costco because my wife was already in the store with the card.
2007 when I was in trade school I started to have incredibly itchy skin. When we were outside working on a project and I couldn’t even stand still because my legs were so itchy. I kept rubbing them together when I couldn’t reach down and scratch them. It was maddening. But a Zyrtec would stop the itchy skin.
2009 I got a good Job, I would limit my drinking to a 6 pack a night during the week, but every day all I could do was think of that beer, plus I would look forward to the weekends all week long so I could get fucked up.
2010 I started to hear my family doctor telling me that my blood pressure was borderline. I never told them about my alcohol abuse. I even had a doctor tell me that my weight was fine because her son was a big boy and I was like him, just like a corn fed southern boy. And of course this was what I wanted to hear anyways. I just kept drinking and eating everything I wanted. But no matter how much I ate or drank my weight stayed around 285. I learned now thought looking back that I had reached my own personal fat threshold. A very bad place to be!
2013 now my doctor is telling me that I need to go on blood pressure medications. Also my fasting blood sugar is 105 and that I needed to watch that. They also put me on a statin. I became incredibly preoccupied with my health and became obsessed that I would get some disease like cancer. I even got a hair cut and the lady nicked my neck and I was positive I got Hep C. I went to the doctor and demanded to get tested.I was so worried about the Hep C because I feared I would have to give up drinking. My anxiety at this point was worse than ever. I even had to leave work after a few panic attacks. It was taking everything I had to hold my life together.
2015 my mom dies from type 2 diabetes. At this point I was drinking more than ever. I was put on 2 blood pressure medication. My blood pressure was 190/110. When I would ejaculate my head would pound so hard I felt like my eyes are gonna pop out of my skull. My doctor tried to put me on an anxiety medication but I refused. I also started having dizzy spells and would almost faint. As a 285 lb man I would get these soars between my legs that would hurt and leak puss.
2016 around December I started my journey back to health. My moms passing away put the fear of god into me. I had a few friends at work doing Keto and after I saw Doctor Sarah Hallbergs Ted talk about diabetes and how poorly my mom was treated for her illness. They basically did everything completely backwards. I was PISSED off. I knew I didn’t want to end up like her.
I went from 285 lbs to 200 lbs in about 8 months. I was doing a Doctor Berg style Keto at the time. My blood pressure dropped like a stone. I stopped my blood pressure meds and the head pain during ejaculation and the dizziness went away. I no longer was tired all the time. I began having boundless energy. I would have a drink once in a blue moon. After cutting sugar out I didn’t really crave it anymore. My soars on my legs went away. I stopped my statin on my own. My moods had become more stable. I quit drinking completely on thanksgiving day 2017. I had a few drinks after dinner that night and I was just over it completely. It brought me no joy anymore. It never even crosses my mind now. I truly believe diet and nutrition are deeply related to addiction.
2018 I decided to give the carnivore diet a try. All the big salads and vegetables which were working for me for a while became incredibly irritating to my digestive system. I couldn’t eat anything without having massive diarrhea. The first thing I noticed on carnivore was my digestion was absolutely flawless. When I would eat I felt satisfied, not full and bloated. The acne on my arms is now gone. The itchy skin still continued until I removed dairy. I no longer have anxiety, I’m always happy. My relationship with my wife and daughter is so much better now. I can be the husband and father that they deserve. I feel incredible all the time.
I can go for 16 hours or longer without hunger. I never think of food during that time. On Keto I would think about all the things I was gonna eat when I got home. Food Is really just nourishment for me now. Thats not to say I don’t enjoy it, but I feel free from the addictions I once had.
I was already into mountain biking from my time doing Keto but on carnivore I am faster, climb better, and have endless endurance. I even beat people 10 years younger than me. I still weigh around 195 lbs but I have definition in my chest and a v shape from my chest to my waist.
Going Keto and then ultimately carnivore has made me realize I was not living life before, but going through the motions. I am truly living now and it’s the best feeling in the world. I have no plans of going back.
For years I struggled with binge eating after a bikini comp. Looking back, I realized I entered the bikini comp during an intense manic phase due to my bipolar disorder. Before the bikini comp I had no issues with binging, even when I was an undiagnosed as having bipolar disorder. The competition served as a trigger and from that point on (almost 10 years ago) I would start a cycle of binging and restricting. During my binges I used the excuse of bulking…and the weight I got to was 138. As soon as I saw that weight I would restrict back to 122. Rinse and repeat. Even at 138 I never looked very heavy to others. Did not feel good or sexy at that weight…just looked “normal”. And I never wanted to be the “best friend of the sexy girl”. I wanted to be the “sexy one”. Lol. But the food addiction prevented that.
What did I eat during my food addiction? –
I was eating 4 to 5 containers of frosting a night, 2 dozen donuts for breakfast…etc..ppl thought it was funny bc I was tiny and could eat all of that..Except it was not funny. Noone would laugh at a heroin addict
. Why did I stay tiny? Because I would overexercise for hours the next day by running for hours or biking from one end of Chicago to the other, or eating until I vomited. Eventually my manic phase would end and I would enter the depressive state and gain weight until I hit 138 lbs, I’d see the number. Rinse and repeat for over a decade.
And then 2017. The year that changed my life. Back when I thought my life was over. The man I loved left me. I attempted suicide and sent to a psych hospital. I was given a psych med (one of the most notorious weight gainers on the market with a BLACK BOX warning which stated that users may develop metabolic syndrome.) I was sure I wouldn’t. I was an athlete after all. But I was no snowflake. This med made me go from 122 to 155 in less than 3 months.
Overexercising no longer worked. Restricting didn’t work. I even stopped binging for a bit to become more healthy and decided to eat healthy whole grains and more veggies and fruits. Nothing worked. I was no longer suicidal but depressed about my weight. I binged again. Now my binges showed. My fasting glucose rose and now my weight rose to 165. I had never been that weight. Not even when I was pregnant. I stopped weighing. Enter Keto.
I lost weight in rapid succession by cutting out grains and sugars. I reached my “goal”. or what I thought was my goal. I went from 165 to 112 ….but still struggled with binging, even on keto. In Jan/ Feb I binged on keto sweets and fat bombs which led me to binging on the real deal. 2 boxes of cupcakes and a whole sheetcake. Soon I was 127. Not 165.. but 127. Sure it wasn’t as big as I used to be, but it was a sign I had to get my binging under control.
I did strict keto and got down to 119 lbs. I looked great, I figured this was my goal weight. No need to lose anymore weight or bodyfat, but I still struggled with cravings and the urge to binge. It was strong. And I knew it was a matter of time before I would give in. So I went carnivore.
I cut out all fruits and veggies, just meat, eggs and fish in hope I could conquer this demon once and for all.
My appetite reduced to the point I could now eat once a day. Sugar cravings left. Psoriasis which I had struggled with- GONE. My psych meds were reduced and then eliminated with the approval of my psychiatrist! Most importantly- no binge urges for sugary foods! Gone. GONE! GOne! And interesting enough.. I thought I had reached peak physique with keto. Not true. Carnivore took me down a path I had never gone before with not much effort! I looked better 10 years after I did a bikini comp with less exercise and no feelings of deprivation! My weight and bodyfat went down again with carnivore. I have never been this lean in my life, even compared with keto. People think I compete! True, I do compete in strength sports- olympic lifting and kettlebell sport. But I do not compete in bikini or figure. Yet people think I do! I don’t have any ups or down and no bipolar episodes since carnivore. Meat truly does heal.
“My healing with foods quest started in my early 20s. I was in my second year of veterinary medicine studies when I became aware of my chronic constipation. (Knowledge is power!)