Mental health – other

Hana improves mental health on a carnivore diet


Hana is a naturopathic physician working and living in the Hawaiian islands. She’s struggled a lot with her own addictions to carbs, with mental health conditions and with bipolar depression.

 

While still in high school, her upbringing as it pertains to food involved a little bit of meat and lots of vegetables including a lot of wheat based food products. She only determined later that she had a subtle neurologic reaction to wheat causing her to spend a lot of her high school years mildly depressed and tired. This led to compulsive overeating which she equates with carb addiction and food addiction.

 

At her greatest weight, she checked in at 178 lbs. In college, she tried different things like becoming gluten-free, going low-carb and going paleo. She also discovered the Atkins diet and and as a result was able to drop most of her excess weight. She surprised herself with how much better she felt on a low-carb, mostly carnivore eating regimen which also included intermittent fasting.

 

“We all have to figure out what works for us. Some people can get away with a lot more (variation in their diet) and some people can’t”, says Hana. A diet based on animal products also helped her to deal with atypical seasonal affective disorder, bipolar type 2 depression, persistent depressive disorder (dysthymia) and circadian light sensitivity.

 

Hana wants to help others find what works for them in the same way that she has found what works for her.

Leri improves back pain, anxiety, and muscle composition on carnivore diet

Leri was initially a skeptic when he first heard about the carnivore diet since it conflicted with what he thought he knew about cholesterol. After being on the diet and realizing the benefits, he doesn’t see cons anymore, only pros.

 

Mental clarity, mood stability, calmness, peace, less anxiety and more rational thinking are benefits Leri now enjoys after becoming carnivore. In addition, his bouts with back pain, skin issues and autoimmune conditions have improved significantly.

 

Some people have difficulties with oxalate dumping. Leri feels that steering away from plants including drinking coffee were key to his being able to overcome this obstacle. His workouts have become more enjoyable. He feels a natural energy that is stimulating and he is more stable emotionally.

 

“I don’t believe humans can thrive on a plant-based diet I just don’t believe it” says Leri.
“I’m convinced that we thrive on a meat heavy diet.” He seems to practice what he preaches by consuming up to 15 eggs per day, liver, steak and butter.

 

Leri feels that … “if you don’t train you’re gonna lose your muscle”. It’s like the old saying about many things … use it or lose it.

 

Leri shares his experiences in the hope that others will be helped along the way.

Mark improved joint pain, hypertension and gained muscle on carnivore diet

Hi, my name is Mark, aka The Carnivore Grandpa. I would like to start by thanking
meatrx.com for inviting me to share my story. Thank you for all you do.

I am 56 year old husband, father, and grandfather. Married to the love of my life for 36 yrs,
father of six wonderful children, and Grandfather of 12. They are all my whole world, and my
greatest movtivation for staying healthy. My wife and I live in Northern Ontario, in what I think is
one of the most beautiful places on earth.

I grew up on a farm and was physically active and fit when I was younger. I am 5’10, when I
graduated high school I was 155 pounds. Two years later I married my highschool sweetheart
and we began our life together. Graduated collage as a Registered Nurse. During my training
we had minimal teaching on nutrition other then to refer to the Canada food guide.

At the age of 24 I was advised by my doctor to change professions due to joint pain which he
believed was brought on by shiftwork. At this point I had gained alot of weight due to poor
eating habits. I felt miserable, tired, no energy, and achy joints. Ironically, I started more labour
intensive work and was able to lose some weight and began to feel better. As the years went by
and I got older and continued to eat whatever I wanted gaining and loosing weight sporadically,
in spite of this I remained in realitively good health, I thought….

At 35 I had reached my heaviest weight yet at 205 pounds. I put on the weight and could no
longer take it off. After a visit to my doctor I was told I had high cholesterol and needed to make
some changes. I was sent to a dietition who told me to cut back on red meat and fats but that I
could eat all the pasta and starches I wanted to fill me up. I was informed the I needed to
increase my fibre in the form of fruits and vegtables. I now know this was terrible advice.
However, it was what the dietition had been taught and the misinformation continues.
A few years later with my cholesterol levels increasing I was also diagnosed with high blood
pressure. At this time I was still eating from the food guide, but decided I should include some
weights to try and help get this under control. In spite of adding 20 to 30 mins of exercise a day
it did absaloutely nothing to change my health or my body composition. By this time I was also
experiencing increased achey joints and had also developed occasional gout. I was still
suffering from fatigue and fluctuating moods and energy levels. I was on a roller coaster. I now
know that at this point I was extremely metobolically unhealthy. It was a wake up call.
In 2017 my wife and I discover the ketogenic diet through Dr. Ken Berry. We jumped on the keto
train and have never looked back. I lost 45 pounds, most of my joint pain, and my energy
increased. My toes although still stiff did not ache from gout. I felt like a new man. I went to my
doctor for my annual check up and after taking my blook pressure she asked me what I had
been doing as my blood pressure had dropped substantially. I informed her I was on the
ketogenic way of life, and she was extremely supportive. I was sent for my bloodwork and my
lipid panels were much better. NO MEDICATIONS NEEDED! In hind sight I wish I had
consumed more protein as to prevent lean muscle loss on keto. I felt good but I felt I was a little
too thin, I felt I had lost to much lean muscle mass. I know there is some contradiction out there about this, I can only share from my own experience.

After a year on keto I began to become interested in what was called the carnivore way of
eating. I decided to try it for a month, seemed extreme but I was open and intrigued and not
afraid of a paradym shift. As I was only eating 20 carbs a day on keto, I thought removing those
last 20 and switch to meat and animal by products couldn’t hurt. After a month on carnivore I
noticed the rest of my joint pain and the stiffness in my toes disappeared. I also noticed that I
was putting on some muscle, and felt my body compasition was changing and become more
define without added exercise! I was motivated! I made the decision to continue for 6 months.
I again went in for a check up as we have been monitoring since starting keto every 6 months.
After taking my blood pressure my doctor asked me, okay what are you doing now. I hesitantly
explained my new way of eating as a carnivore. My doctor who was pleasently suprised and
happy to inform me my blood pressure was in the low normals. She then proceeded to grab a
lab requisition and enthusastically began checking off all the things she wanted my blood

tested. We were both thrilled to see the all my bloodwork came back excellent.
Due to my excellent lab work and how great I was feeling I decided to remain on carnivore as a
way of life. I have been on eating carnivore since May of 2018. During the first year of carnivore,
aside from my physical job as a builder/carpenter, I didnt do much extra exercise. In the last six
months I have begun to incorporate some dumbell weight training and I have seen some
fantastic results, unlike when I was eating all the food groups and had added exercise where I
saw no results.
To date; I have decided to up my exercise regine to see how far I can take this.
I want to encourage those who are reading my story, if a 56 year old Grandpa of 12 can do this
and see such wonderful results so can you. I highly recommend this way of eating, it has been
a game changer for me.

Jennifer improved her cravings, digestion and mood on a carnivore diet

Hi,

I ate strictly meat and primarily red meat OMAD in January.  Before I was an ultra runner to try to keep my weight down.  Running and eating a ton a supplements and “clean” foods.  No matter how much I ran and ate clean my weight eventually increased.  I am a tough girl and dragged this 200+ body over more trail miles than I care to admit.  My longest race was a 50 miler.  So, I stopped running and started lifting weights and eating strict Carnivore.  First thing to go was stomach bloating.  I have been on strict Carnivore now for just over 3 months and I am not going back to vegetarian, vegan or raw vegan (did that for 20+ years).  I definitely experience the zero carn zen now.  Before, my emotional rollercoaster of a personality ran me ragged.  The changes now are now as fast as when I first ate raw vegan but now they feel sustainable with ZERO cravings and I like calm, strong, grateful me.
 
Hope this helps 🤗 -Jennifer

Andrew improved his mood, energy, cravings, and anxiety on a carnivore diet

Coming out of high school I had never considered what I was eating, and had never deliberately exercised. I wasn’t overweight, but I was soft. By the time I was 22, I was overweight, tired, lazy, probably depressed, at 6’ 235lbs. I tried a low carb and low fat diet, with lots of chicken and egg whites, which was popular at the time, and after some ups and downs I eventually got down to 165, which was leaner than my high school days. This is when I started lifting and experimenting with carbs again, and by about 24 years old I was 200 lbs of lean hard muscle and finding a lot of success with a sort of paleo diet— lots of avocado and nuts with my chicken breast and blueberries. By 26 all of the “good” eating habits were out the window, gym sessions were rare, and my weight was steadily increasing as my muscle was melting away. By 30 I was severely depressed, I couldn’t for the life of me get back into chicken/veggies, and especially couldn’t get myself into the gym. Every day I was looking at a big burger or a steak with an IPA for 20 minutes of enjoyment after a long hard day. I felt a little guilty about the beers and potatoes, but I felt really guilty about the steaks. That’s how brainwashed I was. I had vegan friends and family members influencing my thoughts but I wasn’t doing any reading. Steak was a guilty pleasure and I blamed it (and the beers to a lesser extent) for my decline— I even tried having plant based days and weeks here and there thinking it would help (it didn’t, it made me hungry and sad, even with a grain, a green, and a bean on every plate). That routine lasted about four years, until late 2019, when I hit a soft 230, then to avoid passing 235 and being at my “worst ever” I simply decided not to eat anything that comes with a side of guilt. That was my new diet plan, whatever was guilt free.

Being back on chicken and veggies for a month, with no alcohol or caffeine, I felt really good, and I dropped like 9 lbs. Usually a month was my breaking point for chicken and broccoli and I feared that I was going to cave soon, as I was craving a beer or a whole cake. A few months prior I met a woman who’d lost 80 lbs on carnivore, and I thought she was crazy, or lying. Curious, though, and worried my chicken and spinach diet was going to fizzle out, I researched carnivore and found Dr. Baker. After buying his book and reading half of it I switched from chicken/veggies to steaks and eggs. I thought I felt good on chicken with asparagus, but I felt REALLY good on carnivore.

Within a week I had dropped another 9 lbs or so. I didn’t feel hungry ever, my mood and energy were at a constant 90% or higher, just STABLE. After another week I started to notice my anxiety, while still there, was attached to real problems (like running late, etc) instead of just being constant and for no apparent reason. My appetite was super steady and consistent, I knew a steak and four eggs for breakfast would leave me SATISFIED for 8-10 hours. This made life easier, especially while traveling, or looking after my 10 month old daughter. It’s a lot easier to be a super busy business owner, a good husband, and a good father when you’re not worried about feeding yourself. I stopped obsessing about calories and macros. I stopped feeling guilty. I stopped craving alcohol, sweets, cheese (crazy, right?), or even bread. Bread was hard to give up for chicken and veggies but not hard at all for steaks.

I’ve been almost completely carnivore for seven weeks and they’ve been the most colorful and exciting seven weeks I can remember. Today I weigh just over 190 lbs and I still haven’t gotten back in the gym or taken two steps into a run— but now I’m actually craving it. I plan to get my fitness straightened out very soon and I imagine it’ll be a breeze with how much better I’ve been feeling. Right now a steak makes me feel like I have a pump, it’s pretty much euphoric.

When I was posting pictures of baked potatoes covered with bacon and cheese next to a Guinness, my friends would comment that it looked amazing. Now when I post a rib eye with a side of porterhouse they message me “concerned about my health.” This diet is insane, people think you’re nuts, but for every one “worried” acquaintance I have, I have a dozen who say I’m glowing. I don’t know if I’ll stick to this forever, but I do know I’m keeping it in my back pocket to fall back on in case I ever slip into horrible habits. This has been the EASIEST and most rewarding approach to my physical and mental wellness I’ve ever tried. Thank you, dr. Baker, the Petersons, and joe rogan for sharing about this crazy diet!

-Andrew

Richard improved his addiction, depression and mood on carnivore diet

Ive tried all my life to be happy and healthy to no avail until now. From 320lbs to 183lbs in a 1 and a half years starting with keto for 5 months and switching to a carnivore diet for the last year. Keto got the weight moving and carnivore got my mind straight and even more weight off. 

I managed to get off Paxil which was the antidepressant I used to hold myself together while also battling a opiod addiction. I’ve been on methadone for 18 years give or take and am now tapering down with a real shot off getting clean all because the mental stability the carnivore diet provides.  Also managing arthritis pain caused by my previous health condition and side effects of the methadone. I can’t thank you enough for sharing this message of hope that knowone has to suffer the rest of their life. I thought I would be fat and miserable all my life. I thought I would be on antidepressants and methadone till I died. Live long and eat meat

Melissa improved chronic fatigue, PCOS and endometriosis on carnivore diet

Interstitial Cystitis,
Vulvodynia,
Metabolic syndrome,
High blood pressure and cholesterol,
Unstable weight including Underweight, Overweight and Obesity,
Chronic yeast infections, endometriosis, PCOS culminating in a hysterectomy and a
Pelvic Organ Prolapse (grade 2) Whew!
I came to carnivore in the spring of 2019 after thinking about it for a year and reluctantly deciding to give it a 30 day trial. I had gradually lost 40 pounds before starting carnivore and was at a normal BMI. I’ve lost an additional 13 pounds effortlessly since making the transition. I no longer have most of the above issues and the only medication I’m on is bio identical HRT for early menopause from the hysterectomy.
The additional benefits I’ve experienced so far include: stable mood, increased motivation, improved relationships, stronger nails, softer skin and hair, stronger teeth and immune system. I’m also feeling so good that I’ve decided to go back to University in the Fall to finish a degree I put on the back burner over 25 years ago! I finally have energy and desire to live life to the fullest! Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all the inspiring people in the carnivore community who shared your stories. Melissa

Ekaterina improved digestion, hormonal health and PCOS on carnivore diet

Hi!
I am Ekaterina, russian-speaking carnivore coach and live in Switzerland.
 
This is my story (sorry, i can’t write just in a few words
 
 

First of all I’m an ex-vegetarian (10 years) plus ex-vegan (5.5 years).

My health wasn’t perfect since my childhood: allergies to pollen and home animals, genetic psoriasis, super sensitive gut, digestive problems always, acne (especially during vegan phase), unexplained PCOS, amenorrhea.

First serious psoriasis attack was at 15 y/o – first hormonal and school stress. 

At 18 i became vegetarian and felt relative good. At 24 I got pregnant (shockingly to every body around , especially to doctors). The told me it was impossible to have health pregnancy and to give a birth. But it was a gift from heaven and my boy was born. Yes, not perfectly healthy: small, bilateral cryptorchidism, atopic dermatitis, food allergies . But he developed breastfeeding gut and quick.

After pregnancy i got very aggressive psoriasis attack, was hospitalized. Hormones, hormonal creams and so on… and  in 2 years after very low calorie diet of very high lean protein  (no fat) my psoriasis attacked me again… it was the first time when it appeared after sun exposure! Normally sun helps me.

So i decided to try veganism. And in the beginning during “vegan honeymoon” everything was fine for about 1-1.5 years. Psoriasis was  calm, no hormones, no medicines. But after 1.5-2 years of veganism a lot of digestive problems appeared, acne blossomed everywhere on my skin, herpes appeared every month… and bloating, farting, emotional unstability, no libido, insulin tummy, quick aging… i was 26-32 y/o during my vegan story. I tried everything from vegan diet: hclf, 90-10-10, raw vegan, fruitarian, banana islands, raw till four and so on… nothing helped longterm. Psoriasis started to come back. 

At one moment when i started to bleed during pooping… and felt miserable from all these gut cramps and pain… i decided to eat less frequent, and stopped at OMAD (one meal a day). It helped a lot!!! And that way i discovered ketosis 3 years ago. I started with vegan type of keto diet and quickly understood it was almost nothing to eat (thanks to soy allergy). And i started to eat fish once a week, after that cheese… during all these psychological transformations from understanding that veganism was wrong i started to learn science: anthropology, nutrition, physiology, history, quantum physics and so on… i understood the depth of stupidity of going vegan that ruins my health and health of my kid.

So keto helped. I lost a lot of  vegan weight , even too much. And vegetarian keto with salads, oils, nuts, fish and cheese (and tons of supplements!) made me very thin and sick: anemia, no periods, aggressive and nervous, non-healing ulcers on my fingers, very dry skin, some digestive issues … but almost no psoriasis!

Nowadays I’ve been proud and happy carnivore almost 18 months (from june 2018). No supplements. My digestion was never better than on this WOE. My skin glows, my psoriasis is in remissions with some plaques (they appear when i eat not enough fat and too much histamine rich variants of meat and fish). I have some issues with my periods, but no PCOS on ultrasound scan! I eat mostly meat, all types if them, fish and seafood, eggs, butter and organs from time to time. I am looking younger.

And appreciate this carnivorous way of living so much! Thank to meat-eating my son is very healthy and handsome. And his some autistic symptoms disappeared. His mood is stable,productivity in school and piano playing are fantastic, his anemia has gone. He is active and happy child! 

We are still going to the perfect health. And meat helps us!

Veganism was a huge mistake and missed steak!

Meat really heals!

Thank you so much for all you are doing for the world!!!

Sincerely yours 

Ekaterina (or just Kate)

Joel improved Crohn’s disease, skin, energy and fitness on carnivore diet

I was raised in a small agricultural town on a standard American diet including plenty of local fruits and vegetables.  Although I was eating similarly to my family and peers, I started to see signs of poor digestive function in early adolescence.  These included severe heartburn, IBS, and abdominal pain. I also experienced poor skin health, poor circulation, low energy, and poor emotional regulation.

In my early 20s, the gut pain became more intense and widespread.  In an attempt to stop it, I was driven to experiment with various diets and ways of eating, some of which were effective in reducing the pain.  Unfortunately, I could not adhere to those ways of eating without soon feeling weak and lethargic, or seeing other health issues arise. I would always revert back to a standard American diet.

In 2011, I was diagnosed with Crohn’s disease at age 28, and was prescribed medication to reduce gut inflammation.  This helped, but not in reducing my other digestive issues, such as heartburn and IBS. The thought of taking medication and nutritional supplements every day for the rest of my life, only to have slight relief from the pain, and no cure in sight, left me feeling hopeless.  But I am a free thinker, and my desire to learn the truth about nature led me to discover a diet that could help me – potentially cure me of disease.

In December 2017, I heard Dr. Shawn Baker on The Joe Rogan Experience podcast talking about the potential health benefits of eating a carnivore diet, particularly in people with autoimmune conditions such as Crohn’s disease.  In that moment, I committed to stop taking medications and supplements, stop eating plant foods, and begin eating an animal-based diet – and the relief from the pain and inflammation was immediate. In just a few months, my heartburn was gone, my skin was noticeably smoother, and my stools were taking shape.  

After two years on a red meat heavy diet, at age 36, I rarely feel even the slightest abdominal pain.  And as a bonus, my fitness has improved greatly. I’m convinced. I’m a carnivore. 

Joel

Odaine improved mood, back pain and inflammation on carnivore diet

Carnivore Diet Journal

I am Odaine Tomlinson currently 29 years old and I started the carnivore diet on November 2, 2019. Prior to embarking on the carnivore diet, I served in the military and once I got out the Navy in 2012, I was doing long distant running and body building eating a standard American diet. At that time, I had an 8 pack and was super cut. But looking back, I do know that I always had inflammation in my right wrist when I did push-ups. As the years went by and life hit me, I lost touch with my fitness and eventually tried the vegan route briefly and eventually got into the ketogenic diet, where I then began working out again and saw nice results. Time went by into 2019 and I hadn’t worked out in months and noticed that my stomach was poking through my shirts now and that I would have to suck in my stomach in public to try and fool myself. And after learning about the carnivore diet and seeing that Joe Rogan interview with Jordan Peterson, I was blown away when I researched other similar testimonies. So, I figured why not?

Stats on November 2, 2019 (Start of Carnivore Diet)

Weight: 190 pounds

BMI: 27.5

Body Fat: 21.9%

Subcutaneous Fat: 18.9%

Visceral Fat: 10

Metabolic Age: 31

Blood glucose level waking up: 103 mg/dL

A couple days into the diet, I realized that I had a crazy surplus in daily energy and the ability to wake up like a robot. I don’t know how to explain it, but I was waking up with no lag; I am fully alert once my eyes open like I just popped an energy pill. Also, I realized that whether I got 5 hours of sleep or 8 hours of sleep I still had the same constant supply of energy and liveliness. Also, my wife told me that she noticed that my snoring disappeared.

Furthermore, one of the two biggest benefits to me are the fact that I am operating on the highest-octane level of fuel for my body, thus ensuring that I will most likely live a lot longer and vibrant life even though I am only 29 years old right now. Just knowing that this simple decision plays a significant role to reversing the possible cancer, stroke, digestion disorder, and many other ailments that I could have potentially faced 20 years down the road, is phenomenal to me. In my eyes, doing this diet gives me the ability to theoretically get in a time machine at 50 years old and go back in time to my 29 year old self and tell myself to get my s#!t together now so I wont have to deal with XYZ at 50 years old. Secondly, I thoroughly love the mental clarity I have now. Its almost like I don’t have a subconscious mind anymore is my best way to explain it. I can fully control the direction of my thoughts on such a high level now. I feel that prior to the carnivore diet I had a loud sawed-off shotgun with unlimited rounds firing off while blinded folded int the dark in my head; and now I have a high-quality sniper rifle with a silencer with precise scope vision and no wind resistance on a sunny day. The difference speaks for itself.

A week into my first 30 days I noticed some incredible results:

Stats on November 9, 2019 (End of Week 1 of Carnivore Diet)

Weight: 184 pounds

BMI: 26.6

Body Fat: 20.6%

Subcutaneous Fat: 17.8%

Visceral Fat: 9

Metabolic Age: 30

Blood glucose level waking up: 81 mg/dL

After the 2nd week I saw even more improvement with my mid-section area and that my abs were slowly coming back and my chest didn’t have droopy nipples anymore. I also noticed that my voice was being projected farther/clearer; but maybe that was just my hearing getting better (so I am not sure which is the case on that).

Stats on November 16, 2019 (End of Week 2 of Carnivore Diet)

Weight: 180 pounds

BMI: 26.2

Body Fat: 19.9%

Subcutaneous Fat: 17.2%

Visceral Fat: 8

Metabolic Age: 29

Blood glucose level waking up: 79 mg/dL

After the 3rd week I have noticed a steady flow of my energy levels and I have yet to see any negative implications as some people have claimed with transitioning to the carnivore diet. Another thing I recently noticed is that when I carry my 5-year-old daughter upstairs for bedtime at nights; I no longer feel pain in my lower pack and knee. I am not sure when it went away since I haven’t paid any thought to it, but it is still a big plus. Also I notice now that my face is very clear and smooth; I don’t seem to have random pimples on my face every other day or so.

Stats on November 23, 2019 (End of Week 3 of Carnivore Diet)

Weight: 177 pounds

BMI: 25.7

Body Fat: 19.3%

Subcutaneous Fat: 16.7%

Visceral Fat: 8

Metabolic Age: 29

Blood glucose level waking up: 84 mg/dL

After the 4th week I still felt great health wise. And during this week there would be times where I would go through most of the day fasting just because either didn’t feel hungry and/or still felt high on energy. And at this point I compared my picture from when I started the carnivore diet on November 2, 2019 to the picture from November 30, 2019; the difference was amazing to see. Especially knowing that at this point I went from being 18 pounds overweight on November 2nd, to just being 1.8 pounds overweight on November 30th. And please keep in mind that I did absolutely no exercises, no walking around the block, no pull ups, no push ups, nothing. And more importantly I did not break my carnivore diet, I didn’t even eat a single gummy bear when no one was looking. I plan to continue doing this diet plan for 5 more months and will start doing long distance running two months from now so I can see what my weight/muscle baseline is before I take my body for a spin. So, look out for my next update on here in another 5 months or so.

Stats on November 30, 2019 (End of Week 4 of Carnivore Diet)

Weight: 174

BMI: 25.2

Body Fat: 18.5%

Subcutaneous Fat: 16.1%

Visceral Fat: 8

Metabolic Age: 28

Blood glucose level waking up: 89 mg/dL (after brushing teeth)

So just for anyone else who is interested in knowing, I used a standard glucose meter for my blood glucose level. And for the other important numbers, I used the RENPHO Bluetooth Smart Scale that cost less than $25 on Amazon. And as far as what I was putting in my body; I ate mainly grass-fed grass finished meats from Butcher Box, scallops, shrimps, bacon, and free-range eggs. And as an occasional ‘treat’ I ate aged cheddar cheese off the block, pork grinds, and grass fed/finished beef jerky. I used Redman’s Real Salt on my foods, and I only drank water. The water I was drinking ranged from regular bottled water from Aldi, to Fiji Water, to mostly Gerolsteiner water. And I intake a syringe mixture of butter oil, cod liver oil, grass-fed beef liver and grass-fed colostrum every other day. I hope my experience help you!

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